spring water

I am trying to avoid eatting campus food at all costs. So far all I have sunk into CMU for food is 3.75 for a naked smoothie, and 4.50 for some ice cream *EDIT* and some baked pasta but I forget how much that was. *EDIT*. I think I'm doing well, but I don't know how long I can keep it up. I really really don't want to eat all that grease. I haven't had much of an appetite though, which makes it easier. I have been eatting a yogurt for breakfast and like one meal at 7ish. I would have felt starving on that before but I guess since I spend most of my time sitting in classes I don't need it.

I have been keeping on top of my homework so far. It's a nice feeling. Why didn't I do this last year?

I have been having a very emotionally fucked up week. Things still aren't spiffy doodle, but they are better than Monday. I guess it will all just take some getting used to. I kinda feel like that dot Jenna and I talked about in Rota's class. Gosh that was a long time ago. So to fill you all in, there was this little 2-D dot and we were discussing what it would be like if this little dot somehow had a line of sight and was sentient. If it was, then you could fuck with it by like putting your hands around it and suddenly it's entire plane of existance is boxed in and all it sees are walls. The worst thing we were talking about doing to it was somehow ripping it out of 2-D into 3-D. We speculated that this little sentient dot would not be able to handle the stress of living contently in 2-D and being ripped into 3 and it's whatever gives it sentience would just go POOF! because it was just too much for him. That's pretty much how I feel. I was living contently in my little life, then POOF! shit was going on that made no fucking sense with what I knew from how it was a couple mins ago. I believe I fared a bit better than the dot, but not by much. I guess I just need to live with another dimension for awhile. It's just hard because the rules have changed so I can't expect anything and I can't predict anything and I have absolutely no idea how I can interact with this new dimension. Eh I'm not a fan but I don't really have much say if people want to go changing my life. Go ahead, someone try and tell me that I do.

Speaking of my emotional ick the past few days, I am so pissed off that I called it. Like you wouldn't believe. Like I was feeling shitty about it before it happened. What the hell is that all about?