do you?

today was one of those rare days when something horrible happens that just the other day you were hoping didn't. Then you end up crying so much that you feel sick and can't eat and get all shaky. Yeah it was one of those days. I don't even know why it happened. Did you find someone else? Were you just too busy? Do you just need some time to yourself? I thought you loved me. I was going to surprise you on saturday and show up with cakes. I bought the ingredients yesterday, and I also got the okay from my parents. It was going to be a whole day where i could just stare into your eyes and lay with you and whatever else you wanted to do. It was going to be perfect. Now I don't know if you'll ever talk to me again, and if you do are you just going to be cold and pretend like nothing happened? I am so scared. I saw you today, twice. I wanted to run up and give you a hug. I didn't care what fuss you made, I just wanted one more incase you were gone for good this time. I didn't though because you told me to leave you alone, so that's what I'm going to do even though it takes all of me. It's still hard to believe. Where do we stand now? Do you even still love me?

You were the best thing that ever happened to me. I've never loved anyone that much and don't think I will again. Take your time then please come back to me. Please.